Busy...busy!

Alhamdulilah I've been SO busy with my brother and of course school. My brother took his citizenship on Wednesday alhamdulilah and we thought that we can apply for the passport the next day, just like my dad , my brother was suppose to leave Sunday, meaning yesterday! Ammar kept calling for appointment but the phone system was just taking SO long. so on Friday i took my brother and left to the federal building thinking may be they will just let us in. and boy i was wrong, the place was so crowded with people who already have an appointment..so i asked and the guy assured me that we can't go in without an appointment! there is no way! and he gave me the phone number again and told me to call.....any way so we went back home and called, the nearest appointment they had is like a week and a half!! so of course we called the airline to postpone his flight...that's mean my brother has to miss another week of school!!but inshallah khir.

It seems that alot people are applying for their passport now for spring break, because American didn't have to use the passport to travel to Mexico, Canada, the Bahama...etc but with this new law the government passed recently, everyone is applying now to leave for spring break!

Of course I'm very happy to have my brother here especially this week, because i just started my spring break=) On Saturday, i had to go to class thought...we had to do this homework assignment with my group. We decided to go to the mall to observe people;)... it was very interesting hehe! and while we were sitting there i felt thirsty so i asked my group if they were thirsty like me...and they said ya...so i went to this store where they have fresh lemonade drinks and bought a drink for everybody, we were like five. When i took the drinks to the table... all of them were surprised..like oh my God you bought a drink for all of us...and all of the sudden i saw them reaching out to their pockets and were asking how much was it to pay me back!! I was surprised and told them no no don't worry about it..it's my treat! i mean come on it's just a drink!! and they were like r u sure and stuff!! and i just laughed and said ya of course..!they were really happy and kinda surprised! I have to say this is the first time i actually got the chance to go out with like American students. and it is just interesting to see the culture difference i guess. Back home, we joke about Arabs... on how they like fight to pay for dinner for everyone...!

I'm glad spring break is finally here...and i have to say I'm very very very upset to say that i have to drop that class:(( i didn't do good on the 2nd exam even thought i studied really hard for it. if there is anything that will make me feel better about it is actually the fact of knowing that almost half the class did not pass the exam just like me!!! kinda comforting ha...I'm just really happy that i added a fifth class this semester because even thought I'm gona drop one class, I'm still a full time student..I'm still taking 4 classes so alhamdulilah...i tried my best...inshallah I'm planning on taking summer school...and I'm going to keep taking zaid to the day care as usual since I'm paying. Plus he really likes going there to play with the kids....i figured i can use the time to study or do something els..

for now I'm just planning to relax and enjoy my spring break and the company of my lovely brother =) The other good news is that my dad is coming soon inshallah. I just wish both my dad and my brother are here at the same time...but my brother has to leave for school and my dad will be coming for like 10 days only for this family camp we have each year...so it's going to be alot of fun inshallah:)) My dad really wants me to go back with him to attend my sister's wedding....i wish..who knows! I really can't wait to see him, cock with him, and go shopping;))....he is the best dad and I'm very lucky alhamdulilah.

What about zaid? well last week he has been very sick...fever, runny nose, coughing....the whole thing. Now alhamdulilah he is better, but it was a hard week for him. One night i couldn't help watching him being so sick, i started crying. It was just so sad to watch him lying on the floor..can't sleep..can't play So sad habeby:(. Lucky me my brother came on time to babysit. Also we have some improvement... you see zaido was used to ask for a bottle of milk when he first woke up at like 5 in the morning! He will drink it and usually go back to sleep. At first i didn't really have any problem going downstairs and prepare his bottle cus I'm going to wake up any way for Fajer prayer,,,but now i think it's not such a good idea. It is getting harder....i noticed how hard it is to prepare his bottle when we sleep over for example...plus he doesn't really drink it because he is hungry...he basically use it as a tool to go back to sleep...also if i didn't stop it right now, he is going to be attached to it when he gets older and older, so now it's better. And alhamdulilah i did stop it very fast! The first morning he woke up and cried so i just hold him and made him sleep next to me...he cried a little and then just fall back to sleep! I mean it didn't even take 6 minutes mashallah!! and that's it...the toddler "is morning bottle free"! I have to say it feels so good =) We pray and just go back to sleep and i don't have to worry about his diaber in the morning (liquid explosions) if you know what i mean lol. Even when zaid woke up like at 8am or a little before, he doesn't cry like before...he just go and play alone with his toys...leaving me to sleep a little more;) so alhamdulilah and it proofs that he is not really hungry!!see..yay go mommy;)

For now lets enjoy spring break.... =)

The new Irack!!

Guys you have to see this..it's hilarious...my friend send it to me...
tell me what you think;)

Tomorrow,i'll see my bro;)

what a week... on Thu i finished my group presentation wa alhamdulilah..mine was about the war on Afghanistan and i did really good alhamdulilah=) This morning alhamdulilah i finished my midterm for this Sat morning class and i think i did good inshallah....and Guess what? around fajer time my sis talked to me and told me that my little brother Mohammed is coming here!!YAAAAY, inshallah he arrives tomorrow noon. He has to come and miss school so we can finish working on his paper thenge for citizenship...he has like an interview on Wednesday inshallah...and I'm SO happy :) inshallah he will stay for like 8 days only...but we are gona have the best of it inshallah. He is up in the sky right now;) Allah ywasellow besalameh...

After i finished my test this morning i called Ammar and told him to get ready with Zaido so we can go and buy a new vacuum cus i can't stand the house anymore.......it feels so dirty. so we did go to Sears and bought one....i tried it today but i don't think i like it that much. I'm going to try it for few days and see!

I have the second test on Wednesday! I'm so tired man..one after another....but on this test i really have to do good.. inshallah khyr! I can't wait for spring break next week:)

Last night zaido had a little fever..and today he started coughing more and he has a runny nose..so sad to see him sick:( i hope he got well soon. Tomorrow @2pm, this girl in my class invited me to her son's 1st birthday party at chuck cheese..and i was really looking forward to go but now I'm not sure if i can go...Mohammed will arrive at the same time so....I'm thinking maybe i can just stop by and give her the gift... or I'll give her the gift in school ...

any way, Ammar rented like 6 movies because he knows that Mohammed will enjoy it:). we watched this movie called, (finding comedy in the Muslim world) of course the title got Ammar's attention and he decided to bring it....BUT it's the stupidest movie ever..it was SOOO boring, i decided to clean the house while it was on...just a waste of time and money...blah did anyone see it? if u didn't...belive me u didn't miss a thing... don't waste ur time okk...

any way..i'm so excited for tomorrow i can't wait...=)

Salam ow Kalam!

Alhamdulilah, I'm done with midterms...so far so good...i only have this presentation on Thu and i hope it goes well, cus i don't really like working on groups:-( i just hope that everything will go smoothly inshalllah.

I'm taking those 2 classes with the same teacher, one of them is about race and ethnicity! It's very interesting class. For the last week, we have been talking about the conflict between Arabs and Jews!!! and i was so surprised on the way she has been teaching this very complex topic. For the first time, i hear someone talking about the Palestinian and Israeli conflict in a very honest and clear way without playing with words or making some excuses up, and guess what? the teacher is Jewish! she talked and talked about the early history of the issue...how Britain divided the Arab areas and how secretly they given Syria and Lebanon to the French. Jordan to the British.....etc. and then how they decided to name Palestine "Israel"...she talked about how Zionism started the whole thing. She talked about how at first they divided Palestine; 56% for Jews and 43% for Arabs! She also talked about how that agreement dose not exist anymore even thought what they are doing is illegal under the UN rules!...and how the Israeli army is taking control of everything; destroying the Arabs houses and talking their lands...for the new settlement to come!! she talked and talked about everything in a very surprising way to me. She even mentioned how the problems with Jews started in Europe...Germany and such....and mentioned how wired it is for them to bring all the Jews to the Arabs areas instead of European countries, but who is going to give up their lands for those people!!! I really felt like wow, finally somebody is teaching and actually spending like 3 classes on this very critical subject. students were asking many good questioners too, I'm really excited about it:) During the lecture this guy behind my kept asking me questions like ..so, can Palestinian people go back to their areas and stuff?? I told him how hard it is for the..i told him how they have check points on the street, how student have to wait to pass those check points.... i told him how people live in tents and refuge camps...The teacher even mentioned the American girl Rachel, who went their to protest and how the Israelis tank ignored her and went over her body and killed her without any word from the American government! Also, she mentioned that how one of her friends from college has been killed their too.

Ahhhhhhh, this world is so crazy!! oh ya one more thing!...one time this teacher even mentioned the issue of this Arabic professor Al'aryani who has been in jail for no good reason! amazing ha we were talking about racism and how Arabs have been treated after 9/11 she also explained how actually not all Arabs are Muslimes only..there is Christian Arabs and Jews too..etc ....thank God for good teachers.

and I can only say La hawla wla qutta ella bellah! If you want, you can see the full story of this man here:

http://www.cair.com/default.asp?Page=articleView&id=490&theType=AA

Hmm, so today alhamdulilah we bought this new computer disk. And few days a go we finally have installed this camera in our window...we can still see the boys showing up!! I don't wana talk about it....Also today our vacuum just stopped working:( and i ended up cleaning the living room with the broom;)

Tomorrow morning, Ammar is going to Big Bear on a snow boarding trip with the masjied youths, "boys and girls". and inshallaha my mother- in law is coming to babysitte zaido while i go to my Sat class. God bless her...

Ok, so lets talk about cute zaido:-) the other day Ammar woke up at like 7am and asked me where is zaid? i told him oh I'm sure he left our bed and maybe he is sleeping on the floor as usual. Ammar went to see but zaido was not there, so i told him my be zaid decided to sleep in his room, but no body is there!! i told ammar to go look down satires..but i know zaido doesn't like to go down by him self! it was wired...but again no sign for little zaid....in the end Ammar yield, he is here!! OH you have to come see this....I jumped to see and here is where we found him.....;))

heheh, he was sleeping inside his closet!

and here are some more things that little Zaid has been doing this week in pic:-)

Like being a Henna artist;)

a shoe organizer;)

and a magazine reader ;hheh mashallah and God bless my baby....=)

take care everyone..........

I Can't Find Zaid....................

I don't know whats wrong with me today..I'm just not feeling right! I feel stressed, sad, and overwhelmed. I think after this crazy incidents we had two weeks ago, things are just not right. The other night, i saw two boys sitting out side smoking God's know what and drinking the so called Snapple, but i saw the small bottle of alcohol with them. And i saw how they were filling the Snapple bottle with it! Ammar was downstairs with this guy who came to fix something in the kitchen. So without waiting for Ammar, i called the cops...like usual...but this time 3 cars showed up!! also they brought this big police dog with them! I have to say watching the police coming and telling those boys to stand up...and searching them is kinda exciting lol, especially watching this female officer who was leading the dog sniffing around trying to see if they are hiding any drugs. They stayed for what it seems like an hour or less, i didn't get to see what they did with the boys, but they left...and the boys left too! Ammar had no clue about what was happening lol.
But when i told ammar and when it was time to sleep, we were like were not going to sleep in the bedroom tonight, so we slept in the other room!! I couldn't even sleep that night, not from fear but it just i want my bed....when we wake up for fajer, it felt like i only slept for 5 minutes!
It is just SO frustrating lately....I'm really really tired. And in top of that, i don't feel like I'm studying good. I don't wana even think of the idea of having to drop one class! wallah 7aram...we are paying alot of money for the day care.... I hope I'll do better inshallah. pray for me plz! I just need to focus more...but with everything happening lately..Allah y3enny ya rab...

Last night i went to the masjid just to see some friends and for some fresh air. But something scary happened. While i was chatting with this lady, zaido walked to where Ammar's office is...i was really trying to talk to the lady while keeping my other eye on zaido. and all of the sudden...zaido disappeared!! I told the lady excuse me and ran to see if he is inside the office, but no one was there, i freaked out because ammar's office is next to the entrance door. I went out side and started asking some men outside if they saw zaido,,but they all said no! I went inside again and looked in every class room, asked some men to see if he went inside the mussallah, but all said no! I tried to calm my self down ..may be he is in the playground. I looked everywhere...no zaido!!!! Here, i started freaking out and cried...i asked everyone i saw I CAN'T FIND ZAIDO!!! and everyone started to calm me down...but i couldn't see or hear what anyone was telling me...all what i can think is that zaido was next to the entrance....what if la smama7 allah.............i called Ammar three times to come but he wouldn't answer his damn phone!!I got more mad! The little kids were trying to help too. I just went out side again to look, and in few minutes... one lady came holding zaido. ALHAMDULILAH YA RABBY!! She told me i told you calm down...look he was just playing in the playground with the kids!! I couldn't believe my eyes... i hold him and i was just speechless!!! It was the most horrible feeling ever! THANK GOD he was ok!!

After i calmed down...some women started telling me how they too have had some experiences like that and they tried to make me laugh and smile=) alhamdila ya rabby..

seriously this age is just u really can't take your eyes off of them for half the half of the second! now when i think how he ended up in the playground!!!and how he could move so fast mashallah (there is 2 playground),I'm assuming that he walked outside and then went inside from the other big door..walked and walked to the playground which is not very short distance!!! ya Allah, alahamdulilah, alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah. 3an jad Allah la yebleena!and after i went home, i was really mad at ammar. but he swears that he didn't even hear the phone, plus i know that Fri night is the craziest night for him.But i really needed him at that moment. la'anu na'esny ana..... Alhamdulilah 3ala kul 7al....

hehheh, i just remembered how when i was little; i got lost from my parents!! we were inside the air plain coming back from Turkey...and we just landed in Jeddah airport, Saudi Arabia. and you know how they take passengers on buses from the airplane to the airport right!! so somehow my family went on one bus, and i ended up alone inside another bus!!!(kinda like Home Alone lol) I remember i was like 6 or 7 years old and was looking for my parents or any of my brothers or sisters...but everywhere i turned, i only saw strange faces....and i started crying:( and this man came and made me sit next to him and was trying to calm me down...i think i pushed him at first!:) Well, thank God the 2 buses were heading into the same area. When the door opened and we walked inside this loong hall...the first face i saw was my brother Homam who was waiting for me, and i remember how i ran to him so fast....and finally i was safe with my family!

Blaaaah, i talk alot,,,you don't know how much you talk until you write them down;)

So lets talk about zaido:) fun stuff! Today he was the only one who made me laugh and smile...mashallah he is very energetic these days; yesterday he didn't even take a nap! He likes to play with this old big phone we have, but today he took it..put it on his ear and started talking and talking! He was so funny I swear as if he is really talking to someone...and not only that..he was actually walking around the room like his dad do sometimes...also while he was talking, he was like resting his other hand on his desk. wallahi he looked like a young short MAN:)) Allah ye7mey. Also, while he was playing on the floor, he took this magazine and started flipping one page...looked at everything in it and then flipped to the next page...but the way he was sitting awww...so cute. He is acting more like a grown up now=)

Allah ye7mey zaido ow yeb3ed 3anna kul sharr, ya Allah e7fazna 7ythu ma kunna. May Allah protect us and all of our children.

Ameen.