I Can't Find Zaid....................

I don't know whats wrong with me today..I'm just not feeling right! I feel stressed, sad, and overwhelmed. I think after this crazy incidents we had two weeks ago, things are just not right. The other night, i saw two boys sitting out side smoking God's know what and drinking the so called Snapple, but i saw the small bottle of alcohol with them. And i saw how they were filling the Snapple bottle with it! Ammar was downstairs with this guy who came to fix something in the kitchen. So without waiting for Ammar, i called the cops...like usual...but this time 3 cars showed up!! also they brought this big police dog with them! I have to say watching the police coming and telling those boys to stand up...and searching them is kinda exciting lol, especially watching this female officer who was leading the dog sniffing around trying to see if they are hiding any drugs. They stayed for what it seems like an hour or less, i didn't get to see what they did with the boys, but they left...and the boys left too! Ammar had no clue about what was happening lol.
But when i told ammar and when it was time to sleep, we were like were not going to sleep in the bedroom tonight, so we slept in the other room!! I couldn't even sleep that night, not from fear but it just i want my bed....when we wake up for fajer, it felt like i only slept for 5 minutes!
It is just SO frustrating lately....I'm really really tired. And in top of that, i don't feel like I'm studying good. I don't wana even think of the idea of having to drop one class! wallah 7aram...we are paying alot of money for the day care.... I hope I'll do better inshallah. pray for me plz! I just need to focus more...but with everything happening lately..Allah y3enny ya rab...

Last night i went to the masjid just to see some friends and for some fresh air. But something scary happened. While i was chatting with this lady, zaido walked to where Ammar's office is...i was really trying to talk to the lady while keeping my other eye on zaido. and all of the sudden...zaido disappeared!! I told the lady excuse me and ran to see if he is inside the office, but no one was there, i freaked out because ammar's office is next to the entrance door. I went out side and started asking some men outside if they saw zaido,,but they all said no! I went inside again and looked in every class room, asked some men to see if he went inside the mussallah, but all said no! I tried to calm my self down ..may be he is in the playground. I looked everywhere...no zaido!!!! Here, i started freaking out and cried...i asked everyone i saw I CAN'T FIND ZAIDO!!! and everyone started to calm me down...but i couldn't see or hear what anyone was telling me...all what i can think is that zaido was next to the entrance....what if la smama7 allah.............i called Ammar three times to come but he wouldn't answer his damn phone!!I got more mad! The little kids were trying to help too. I just went out side again to look, and in few minutes... one lady came holding zaido. ALHAMDULILAH YA RABBY!! She told me i told you calm down...look he was just playing in the playground with the kids!! I couldn't believe my eyes... i hold him and i was just speechless!!! It was the most horrible feeling ever! THANK GOD he was ok!!

After i calmed down...some women started telling me how they too have had some experiences like that and they tried to make me laugh and smile=) alhamdila ya rabby..

seriously this age is just u really can't take your eyes off of them for half the half of the second! now when i think how he ended up in the playground!!!and how he could move so fast mashallah (there is 2 playground),I'm assuming that he walked outside and then went inside from the other big door..walked and walked to the playground which is not very short distance!!! ya Allah, alahamdulilah, alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah. 3an jad Allah la yebleena!and after i went home, i was really mad at ammar. but he swears that he didn't even hear the phone, plus i know that Fri night is the craziest night for him.But i really needed him at that moment. la'anu na'esny ana..... Alhamdulilah 3ala kul 7al....

hehheh, i just remembered how when i was little; i got lost from my parents!! we were inside the air plain coming back from Turkey...and we just landed in Jeddah airport, Saudi Arabia. and you know how they take passengers on buses from the airplane to the airport right!! so somehow my family went on one bus, and i ended up alone inside another bus!!!(kinda like Home Alone lol) I remember i was like 6 or 7 years old and was looking for my parents or any of my brothers or sisters...but everywhere i turned, i only saw strange faces....and i started crying:( and this man came and made me sit next to him and was trying to calm me down...i think i pushed him at first!:) Well, thank God the 2 buses were heading into the same area. When the door opened and we walked inside this loong hall...the first face i saw was my brother Homam who was waiting for me, and i remember how i ran to him so fast....and finally i was safe with my family!

Blaaaah, i talk alot,,,you don't know how much you talk until you write them down;)

So lets talk about zaido:) fun stuff! Today he was the only one who made me laugh and smile...mashallah he is very energetic these days; yesterday he didn't even take a nap! He likes to play with this old big phone we have, but today he took it..put it on his ear and started talking and talking! He was so funny I swear as if he is really talking to someone...and not only that..he was actually walking around the room like his dad do sometimes...also while he was talking, he was like resting his other hand on his desk. wallahi he looked like a young short MAN:)) Allah ye7mey. Also, while he was playing on the floor, he took this magazine and started flipping one page...looked at everything in it and then flipped to the next page...but the way he was sitting awww...so cute. He is acting more like a grown up now=)

Allah ye7mey zaido ow yeb3ed 3anna kul sharr, ya Allah e7fazna 7ythu ma kunna. May Allah protect us and all of our children.

Ameen.