Too Much Tarab= headache!

Today i didn't go to my first 2 classes cus the teacher told us not to come:D...don't you love those days, so it was nice to spend time with zaido in the morning. I tried to have some sleep but zaido was turning the stereo on SO loud. I think i should hide it again! Seriously, the first thing he dose when he wakes up in the morning (6 or 7am) is running to the computer room and would cry and cry until one of us opens the door for him!! Then he turns the CD player on and just enjoy listening, and its not like he listens to each song...no...he keeps pressing next...until he likes one song and would repeat it again and again!! IT is annoying. Sometimes we have fun dancing together, but now I'm starting to have a headache! As long as i am upstairs, the CD is on...so the only two solutions are to go downstairs or hide the stereo! (this pic is old thought;)

Today Zaido did something cute. While he was watching Barny and the kids dancing, I found him joining them! It was so cute...he was moving his legs from one side to the other just like the kids on TV; he made me smile from ear to ear, i wish i had the video camera next to me to record his first "shake it shake it=) and he loved the kids on TV, he started kissing them through the screen lol, He also loves Elmo alot;)

Also, before i put Zaido to sleep...and while i was laying down on my tommy on the couch, zaido came with a banana and started hitting my back with it (lightly, kinda lol)..., he was going back and forth using one banana and then another new one. He was cracking up...and i loved the massage:))

This evening there was the City Council Meeting, so ammar told me that he will take this opportunity to thank the Mayor in front of everyone there for what he and the City manager did for us and all the neighborhood. I really wanted to be there in person too to thank him myself in the meeting, but unfortunately i can't take zaido. When we had the emergency meeting at our complex, zaido drove me crazy; he was running around, claiming the table and the chairs and i had to run after him; all that was happening while the Mayor and the police were talking. So i don't think that i want to embarrass myself lol

Ammar also told me that he wanted to thank everyone in the City because they are REALLY working to change things around here. For example, they just told ammar that one the complex...the one before our house where the bad boys also meet; they basically have given those bad residents a notice to leave the property:))) is that a good news or what:) Alhamdulilah! The Mayor told ammar to just wait and see ;)

I'm so happy alhamdulilah....I've heard so many things about this Mayor and how he is working hard to change and improve the City of Hawthorne... how that they are building new houses for sale and trying to eliminate renter properties, bringing new business to the city and many more... and now I'm seeing some of their improvements first hand ;) .....I can only imagine what would of happen to us if Ammar was not involve with the city for the past 5 years...he started as a volunteer and now he is one of the commissionaire for the the youth=)...if you or ur husbands can have time to volunteer with the your city...or just attend their meetings...i encourage you to do so..this way you can know exactly what is going on in your city..plus its good for people to see some concerned Muslims;) therefore, if God forbid something happened to any of you, your city ad people will know who you are...!

I cooked some stuffed green pepper for dinner...and the smell is yummy....even though I've been busy with school and stuff, but I've been cooking and eating more lately. It's good i guess! The only sad part is that i haven't been working on the treadmill lately. When i was off from school last month, i used it everyday for 30min and some days for a full hour. But since the school started, it went down! And i feel heavy, so yesterday i used it.....and it felt so good...

One paper down and another one to go on Thu! I need lots of duaa this time...

oh that multiple choice exam last Wen was really bad!! :(

Alhamdulilah, last Sat my mother- in law came and took care of zaido while i went to school. It is so nice of her..she is going to babysit him for the next 2 Sat too inshallah because Ammar is going to be busy for the next 2 Sat..so alf alhamdulilah...she is such a sweet heart mashallah and i really really love her. I'm really blessed. Alhamdulilah.I should write a whole post about her and her kindness:) Inshallah!

so again lots of Duaaaaa plzzz,

Busy week.

I wana thank everyone who called me, prayed for us, or left a comment because they really made me feel good, so thank you.

Oh, someone asked about the name of the street! Well, I'll only say that i live in the city of Hawthorne :) is that enough! Another thing, in my previous post i mentioned that the problem started shortly after we moved to the house.But i made a mistake...we have been in this house for 3 years now, and the problem started like a year a go...i guess it does make a difference..

Hmm, we are doing better now. On Wednesday, we had an emergency meeting with the home association. Ammar and I made sure to let all the neighbors know about it and passed flayers and alhamdulilah most of them came. The Mayor and the chief of police came too. It was really nice of him. The Mayor talked to everyone about how they are really won't leave working on what happened... but he had to leave early since it was unplanned meeting and he already have a meeting somewhere els, so it was really nice of him to stop by again! He told us that we can make another meeting and that he will be more than happy to come; he said maybe we can do some BBQ too so all the neighbors can have a chance to both have fun and know each other more=)

The chief of police was with us the whole meeting....we talked and talked and I'm SO proud of Ammar. Basically HE was the only one from all the neighbors who really knew what he was talking about....basically he "sharsha7" the manager of our association...he discussed many things....for example when ammar read the laws of our association...he found that the pelanty if someone threw a trash in the complex that he or she will be notified first, and if he or she did it again , they Will be finned a $ 25.00!!!!!!! what the........................ usually it is no less that 500 or even a $1000 ...This is just a small example! and i really liked this chief of police ..he was really cool with us......the manager of course was trying to defend himself....but every time Ammar will bring some other issue up, he doesn't really have a good explanation or just say that the law of Cali is this and that...but Ammar mashallah 3aleh have done his homework and did have some information and examples of how other complexes do things differently ......so the chief of police said to Ammar and to all the neighbors...u have the power to change the manager u know....he said that in front of the manager;)....u should of seen his face (the so called manager)..........The chief of police also was really happy with us because we did call them...cus some of the neighbors started saying that they too noticed something about those boys, but no one did something or called the cops...

So ya it was very interesting meeting.......for our safety issue.....we have the camera but we didn't put it yet! we are waiting for this guy to come.........and since last week, we didn't see one of those boys....and the police cars have been passing our street more. Ammar told that the other day he came home like twice to take something from home, and both time he found the police cars there!! so alhamdulilah....they kept their word.

I have to say, I didn't think this whole thing would effect me THAT MUCH but it did......i had 2 midterms last week and I couldn't really consecrate...even during one of the exams....it was multiple choice....and i noticed that i was reading the question like five time to understand it! Also, the other day Zaido was playing downstairs and he ran to look from the big window, and i jumped after him and told him NO....what about we play over there. When we go inside our bedroom, sometime that feeling of fear comes to us. And before we go to sleep, we make sure that all the phones are next to us now...its so hard not to feel safe in your own house!

But inshallah everything will be OK. If i said alhamdulilah 10000 times, it won't be enough..so laka alhamdu ya Allah that no one was hurt..

i wana write about good stuff now:)

the other day i filled the banio in the bathroom with water and bubbles and both Zaido and me jumped there. It's the first time we do that....and we had such good time playing with some toys and splashing water..it was so much fun=))

Yesterday, while i wanted to pray, zaido wear my cover and starts prying...he looked so cute yu'bushny

Also....few minutes ago...i was listening to some music. Well not me...Zaido has been playing with the stereo......and i noticed zadio doing something amazing. There is this song that starts with a piano sound...and when it starts, I saw zaido putting his fingers on the table and moving them as if he is playing the piano!!!! I was really amazed.....how did he know?

He does have this little piano toy...but i think I'm going to buy him the one with the real sounds in it now. Maybe this boy have a talent ;) even the lady at the day care told me how zaido loves to to turn on the stereo she has...she was surprised that he know how turn it on by himself mashallah!

Alhamdulilah i can tell he is SO happy there=) even when i drop him off...you know what he does? he follows me when i want to leave...and everyone at the begening thought oh oh, he doesn't wana stay, but you know what he did? He followed me to close the door behind me!!heheh wallahi he made everyone there laugh.

Alhamdulilah...

Ammar decided that he finally wants to start on fixing the back yard, so yesterday he brought a friend and started working.. it took them alot of time though, they worked from 8am to 8pm+ going back and forth to Laws.....etc hopefully they can finish it fast before it rain in Tus!

I have 2 papers due this week, so i ggg busy...

Good luck and plz keep us in ur da3awat:)

Scary Night

So i guess my so called good day on Sat was not complete after all!!
at 2:30 am of Saturday night..or Sunday morning...somebody threw a rock into our bedroom window and broke it...the rock landed on the other side of the bed and alhamdulilah no one was hurt. I was sleeping alone on the bed...Ammar was up late reading in the computer room, and zaido alhamdulilah did not feel anything.
So as i said i was sleeping alone in the bedroom and i can not describe the terror of that night. I woke up screaming like crazy...the sound of the crashing glass was So freeky...and subhanallah..I've been hanging this blanket on the window because those window blinds has been falling off and i just did not feel save..because if the light is on, people can see us from the window...so subhannallah if this blanket was not there, the broken glasses would of been all over me.
The problem started shortly after we moved into this house. We noticed that there is those bunch of teenage boys who always come and sit outside the entrance of our complex. They come very late at night and eat, drink, and talk very loud at 12am and sometimes later. One time i actually saw them selling drugs and stuff. They even jump over the entrance door and just come inside our complex! So ammar and i have been calling the cops every time we see them...it is very annoying because we can hear and see everything from our bedroom window...and the police do come..but those boys manage to run away most of the time...or the cops do catch them but they can't find anything with them. It is SO frustrating.
So basically that night they boys were outside..and Ammar as usual called the cops on them...and they ran away...BUT the thing is those boys now know that we are the ones who have been calling the cops on them. HOW? well because they have seen ME and AMMAR watching them from the window. It is getting SO scary...apparently one of the boys have got sick of us and wanted to scare us...so he decided to throw this rock...
I was freaking out that night..Ammar and I could not sleep, We could not even go inside our bedroom again. We wanted to go downstairs to make sure that the window and the door are all locked...we both were shaking. Every time we hear a small sound we both jump...the police came but they said that they can't do anything because no one saw who throw the rock...!!

But we could not sleep..there was no way!!what if they came back...what if they are watching us..what if .......
all what we can do is pray and pray...ammar and i were holding each other tight..we were breathing so hard...our hearts were beating So fast..wallahi it was the most scary thing ever...just sitting there in the computer room and not knowing what next is going to happen....I've told ammar before that those kids know it's us.....and that they will do something to us..it is just about time. And now it's happening ya Allah..
in the middle of the night..Ammar send a message to the Mayor and told him ..this is what happen to us and if you want to come visit we will be at home...
and surprisingly, at 9:30am..the Mayor was knocking at our door!!! He said that he was on his way to church but when he read the e mail...he told his wife to go and that he will catch them later but he had to see us first!!! He did not just show off...he actually called the chief of police and told him to come right away!!! I mean 3an jad....at that moment i felt a little bet better...they did some stuff..
not only that..i mean the Mayer came back at 4pm with another police and they took picture and stuff. The Mayor told us that the police talked to one of the boys who lives in our complex....he gave him a real talk and that they are basically watching him....so he better be careful!
Any way...we spend the night at my Brother's -in law's house the other night...we talked to all the neighbors about it....we are going to meet with the home association tomorrow..the Mayor will show up too with the police....
There are so many things is happening now.....and I'm tired of writing....but the most important thing is that we are going to put a camera on our window...
any way....Alhamdulilah that we are all fine and no one was hurt.
I'm writing this while I'm in school.....its good that I'm out ...when one the neighbors heard about what happened to us, she came that morning and asked me..r u ok and stuff ..she told me if i was scare one day or if i was alone to just call her ..she told me call and I'll come ..or u can come and spend the time with her....when she wanted to leave ..she hugged me and cried!! alhamdulilah ..we really have a good neighbors...as ammar said to me....its sad that a tragedy had to happen to meet our neighbors!
i have to go pray now, eat cus I'm so hungry..and then head for my second class....

plz plz pray for us....i'm really scared

Good Day!

Alhamdulilah, today was a fantastic day. I went to my class early (the one from 9-12am) but when the teacher came he made us take a quiz and just leave=) so all the students were like yaaay, extremely happy. I mean don't you love those classes on Saturdays;)

And also today i was invited to a baby shower, so i got to go to the store and buy the gift and go back home to spend a good time with hubby and zaido who was sleeping!

Then around 1:30pm, my dear friend came and picked me up for the baby shower while Ammar babysit Zaido=) It was really nice feeling to go alone without the baby and just hang out with some old friends....

My friend was laughing at me when i told her how good it feels to actully dress up, and the fact that I'm holding my cute little purse and not a daiber bag :D

So alhamdulilah we had such a good time at the baby shower; the food was yummy, the games were fun, and just the whole thing was perfect. I think one of the reasons that made the party more fun is most of the girls who are "Mommy's" have left their babies at home with their husbands, so everyone was relaxed and really enjoying their time...so thank God for our nice hubbys;))and Mashallah!!

Hmm, this Mon basically there is no school, but i have 2 exams: one on Wednesday and another on Thursday..so inshallah i need to spend some time to study for that ow inshallah khair!

On Thursday, we had to read and discuss this article in class about the "Vail" in our book! So it was very interesting, usually I'm kinda quite in the class....but because of this topic i had to talk and explain things to students. I hope that might have helped some people understand more the hijab and why we wear it! I'm sure so many of you have done something like that 100 times before, but for me this is new because i never felt comfortable speaking up with my broken English...but i did it now...the words came out from my mouth easily and i was not shaky and stuff so alhamdulilah, i feel happy!

..Ammar told me today that i actually need to find a babysitter for Zaido for the next 3 Saturdays!! because he is going to be busy with stuff! So I don't really know what I'm going to do..who is going to babysit on a Sat morning:( i can miss one class....but three!!!...so i need to find someone fast! any volunteer?:)

ahhhh Allah y3ynny inshallah.

I Can Communicate!

Yesterday, (Fri) i made some Burgers...wow, loooong time!! and after i finished eating, i stood up to take my plate to the kitchen. And before i enter the kitchen.... Zaido started screaming with a loud voice as if he is yelling at me! So i went back and asked him...shu fee mama? And this boy started pointing at the couch where i was sitting, and he was like really yelling at me!!.... waaat?? and you know what i found? There was a small piece of lettuce that i apparently dropped when i was eating! I just started laughing =)....I mean i wish you guys could of heard how he was yelling. I think he was saying, "Hello, when you drop something, you better pick it up..shu hada, ellet zooq wallah". It was SO funny. I was like excuse me mama!
It's amazing when kids try to communicate. I think only mothers can understands thire babies best.. sometimes by their voices only. Subhannallah, of course I don't think it happens right away..but with time and experience I guess Mommy's can really tell the difference. Subhanallah, when Zaido was still a little baby, I remember how by the way he cried..i knew what's going on. When he is scare i knew it..because he screams in a different way. When something is not right...i felt it...subhanalllah i don't know how to explain it but i just know by the way he cried! I can tell that Zaido is going to be a very organize kid (or at least I hope:) He likes to put his toys back after he finish playing, his clothes,picking the tarsh up, and he likes to organize our shoes..etc That does not mean that he doesn't do the opposite sometimes thought;)

Today,(Sat) i went to class in the morning. There is the Mu'akha Banqet thenge by ICH that I'd love to go to this evning. They are going to have some plays, baba Ali is coming, and many fun stuff, but I'm not sure if i can take Zaido with me:( I'm going to wait and see.

Also, next Sat we are not going to be able to leave Zaido with khaleh for the special night that Ammar has planned, because she is leaving again!! what a luck!! Whatever...I don't feel that we are going to do it anymore...just having to delay it again and again has took the excitement out of " my surprise!" I was SO exited when Ammar told me about his plans, any way, just another thing that makes me think of how different things will be if MY family was here:(

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OK, i have some updates =) Alhamdulilah i was able to go to the M'uakha banquet. I just decided to take zaido with me...i told myself, if zaido made noises and stuff then I will leave for sure..since the place is like a walking distance from my home=)) So ya i went and I'm glad i did. I had SO much fun alhamdulilah...and they did not expect to have this# of people to come! mashallah it was very nice! There were some skits, poems, and videos that were done by ICH and other youth groups from different masajed..and there was some prizes for the winners. Very nice mashallah, and the most fun part was when Brother Ali from Umma Films came. He made a new video last night just for this event, so we got to see it first lol.....He is SO funny and talented mashallah!

And alhamdulilah I'm happy that i got to see all my friends that i have not seen for a really long time. Allah yjzehon el khair....the girls did a very good job...Wallah I'm so proud of my friends Fatin and Marwa who organized the whole thing mashallah!

Go ICH Girls Youth Group=) You made our day;)

Al- Aqsa Mosque :(

It is really happening now!! The Israelis are digging under the mosque .... they already destroyed one of the big entrance called "bab el magharbeh" in order to destroy two rooms that are basically attached to the east wall of Al- Aqsa!

The sad thing is when i tried to look for more information, I only found some small headlines...like it's no big deal!!

I can only say..La hawla wla quata ella bellah...

Updat: well things are changing....ow inshallah kahir ow Allah yustor!

Ya Slaaam!- LA Zoo!

Wallahy today I'm so happy. After i dropped Zaido at the Day Care and left for my class....i found this beautiful sign on the door that says STOP! NO CLASS TODAY! =) ya saaaaalam if people were not around, i would of kissed the sign from happiness lol. The good thing is i actually have not one but two classes with this teacher, meaning I'm free from 10 to 2. My third class starts at 2:30;)) so i picked Zaido up and now I'm home enjoying my time with my baby

The weather is kinda weired, it's very hot today!

Since this past Saturday Ammar and I couldn't go out alone, we decided to go all of us as a family to the Zoo;) so after i finished my class we left and we had so much fun alhamdulilah. Zaido was funny, every time he sees one animal he stops and would not leave=) and we were trying to convince him that there is more and more animals to see but nop, he would not move until we had to hold him and walk away to see the other animals, and then he would not move again....etc. He was so happy and excited when he saw the monkeys, birds, the big cat fish swimming, and the most beautiful creature, the koala, they are sooo cute. Any way, it was such good day because usually Ammar is always busy with something, so it was nice to spend a full day all of us together:)

So alhamduliah.

That's it for now....have a nice day everyone;)

Shalom!

I Miss the baby and I Love my Zaido!

Around 6pm today, i was checking some stuff on line, chatting with a friend, and listening to some music, Zaido was sitting on my lab and enjoying some songs with me. He is in love with this song from Outlandish Group. After few minutes, i found my baby falling asleep on my lab. I held him tight and i just looked at his cute face and beautiful eyes habeby and realized...ya Allah how much i miss him sleeping in my arms. I can't even remember when was the last time my baby falling sleep in my lab. Lek he use to sleep in my arms all the time when he was a little baby...I really miss that feeling. Holding him that close to me, watching his cute face, and kissing him without (him) pushing me away:) Aww i miss baby Zaido. He is growing very fast subhanallah! Every stage has its own yummy taste. I can't compare both but I really love how he interacts with me more now.

I love taking him to the park and watching him play and run around and discovering new things. I love watching him interacting with other kids. I love it when he brings a book to me and asks me to read it for him. I love watching him drawing some "shakhabeet" in his note book. I love it when he comes to me pointing at his diaber and asking me to take his clothes off, so he can sit on the toilet (even though he never did it there). I love it when he tries to help me folding the laundry (he gives me piece by piece and I fold it;). I love it when he comes running inside the kitchen when he sees me emptying the dishwasher;so he can help me;)) Here is my favorite, I LOVE it, when I'm still in bed and he comes to put his cute little lips on my checks..giving me the most delicious morning kiss! I love it, when he comes and takes me from my hands to run after him around the table. I love it, when he fake his(cry in the morning) asking me to refill his bottle while I'm still in bed and when i do, he doesn't touch it, cus he just tricks me on going downstairs with him to play and starts the day;) I love it, when he feeds me HIS food. I love it, when he runs toward the door when he sees the garage door opening; knowing that "dada" is home. I love it, when he greet daddy with a big hug and smile. I love when he wakes up at Fajer to take my space in bed! and when i sleep on the mattress that's on the floor, i find him sleeping next to me!I love how when he farts, he says "oh,oh". I love it, when he hear the Athan, he says "Akbar"! I love it when he calls his daddy by his name "Ammmaaaar" I love when he helps me waking baba for Fajr prayer by tickling him, I taught him that=). I love it when he refuse to sleep or drink his milk, unless "dabdooby" is next to him! I love it when he turn the light on when I'm using the computer in the dark!! I love it, when the first thing he says when i put him in his car seat is "hada" pointing at the CD!! I love it when he talks and talks and talks.... and "me" not understanding a word, but I just talk to him back!(explaining the social theories to him, or how hard baba works;) I love when he copy everything we do (sometimes it's not funny:) I love it, when he laughs when I make wudu's ; for some reason he laughs when i finish washing the (face part:)!

Ahhh, lek Zaido, I love everything about you mama!

I Love You Ya A7la baby behaldynee!

Allah ye7mely yak ya mama, ya habeby, ya 3omry. Allah la ye7remny men shoofet hal face kel yoom. Allah ye7meek ow yj3alak men alsale7een...Ameen

YUUUK!

Today after i finished my first class at 11:15 am , i was so hungry. I usually like to eat something before i leave in the morning...breakfast is a very important meal right:) but with this early class. There is no way, i wake up like around 8:30....prepare Zaido's diaber bag, give him a shower, put cloths on him, and by the time i dress my self, it is already like 9:20. I rush to my car and we leave for the Day Care Center. Then to my school for the first lecture at 10am!

So any way, when i finished my class i was starving. They opened a new cafeteria in my school finally...we didn't have a cafeteria last semester, students use to buy food from those big trucks, candy machines, or those small stores around campus! But now we actually have Subway and they are opening Taco Bill and other good stuff soon;)

I went to our brand new cafeteria to buy something from Subway, but the line was crazy..there were so many people waiting on the line, so i though maaan I'm not gona stand here for like 20-30 minutes, I'm just gona grab anything from this big truck out side. And i wish i never did. After i bought a sandwich..i walked until i found a good place to sit and enjoy my breakfast. After i took the first bite.....i was like oh my God... (wait nothing happened here yet) i just didn't ask the woman what kind of meat in it. So i walked all the way back to the truck and asked the woman. When she said it is turkey, i was like yay...now i can enjoy my breakfast and walked again to my seat. I put my books aside and couldn't wait to take the second bite....BUT before i did thank God i actually found a hair in it YUUK i already took a bite!!!:(. And you know there is two separate sandwiches in the thing, so out of curiosity, i opened the other one and i swear i found another longer hair!!!! i was like NO wayyyyyy. The hair was not even like hidden, it was very abvious. I threw it in the trash immediately.

I've never trusted those trucks that sells food before and it's the first time I've bought something from them. Actually this is the first time that t bought real food from school. Usually if i get hungry, i buy chips or something sealed, bas ana el habla because i was so hungry i thought come on Lobna, if they weren't clean, they wouldn't put them in a campus! Well I learned my lesson the hard way...tooooobeh ya Allah. Thank God that i saw that befor i actully ate the whole thing ewwwwww can you imagen!!!

So people, don't ever trust those trucks that sells food...and try not to make the same mistake i did even if you are starving.... mafhoom! Thank You

Now i think standing on that long line was worth it right? at least it's Subway...somthing you can trust...., actully I don't know if i can trust anyone now.

On another (nicer) note, yesterday Ammar made Riz belhaleeb for us. We use to make it alot... it is yummy. I gave some for Zaido today and he loooves it alhamdulilah:) He is truly baba's and mama's boy :-)

Aaand guess what..today is our Kitab anniversary :) I totally forgot about it lol...every year Ammar reminds me of it...lool I'm weired woman! Ammar has been planning for a special night for both of us this Sat, but my dear mother- in law just had a surprise by her own husband "my father- in law", he bought her a first class ticket to go see her family and attend family wedding, isn't that sweet mashallah:). So now we can't leave Zaido with her! may be the following week inshallah. This is like the 5th time we try to leave zaido..but somthing happens!!

Allah yej3alna men su3ada'a el daryn...ow yej3al 7ayatna ma3 azwajna maleeea'a bel fara7 wal suroor. Ameen

Have a nice weekend everyone!And Be safe